Back Again!
I decided to post again after neglecting my blog for so long...many of my friends thought that I quit blogging (which I've thought about) and others were nagging me to post something...but my blog reflects my personal life and I felt empty...I didn't have anything to say! I know I called my blog Jelly Belly Nonsense but a lot of my posts are personal...in the past couple of months I was going through rough times and depression did take over my life.
I isolated myself from a lot of people around me because I hate it when people think of me as being weak or the others who just don't understand why I keep falling back into depression and think I'm just being dramatic about my life...whatever the case is I just didn't want to be around people...
The best thing about being alone is you get to think and reflect about many things in your life....One of the major things that I needed to do is cut off someone from my life after seven and half years....I think it was one of the hardest things I've ever done but I knew I had to do it...why now? after all these years...I think I'm becoming emotionally numb or as the lyrics of one of my favorite songs I have become comfortably numb!
My dear cousin analyzed my relationship and she told me something that I think I already know but she said that I keep sabotaging my education and delaying my graduation to avoid what's waiting for me back home...hmmmmm yeah I think she's right since I have only 4 classes to graduate and I keep delaying those 4 as long as I could!!!
now what is the point of this whole post? I honestly can't tell you myself because I think I'm still confused about many things in my life and I need to figure out a way to pull myself together soon! Wish me luck finding myself again :)
On a lighter note I found the song that I was looking for back in April of 06....thanks to Youtube and Sporty4ever :)
Sa3a mawzoona sa3a tara'la'leee (That's how I feel LOL)
I isolated myself from a lot of people around me because I hate it when people think of me as being weak or the others who just don't understand why I keep falling back into depression and think I'm just being dramatic about my life...whatever the case is I just didn't want to be around people...
The best thing about being alone is you get to think and reflect about many things in your life....One of the major things that I needed to do is cut off someone from my life after seven and half years....I think it was one of the hardest things I've ever done but I knew I had to do it...why now? after all these years...I think I'm becoming emotionally numb or as the lyrics of one of my favorite songs I have become comfortably numb!
My dear cousin analyzed my relationship and she told me something that I think I already know but she said that I keep sabotaging my education and delaying my graduation to avoid what's waiting for me back home...hmmmmm yeah I think she's right since I have only 4 classes to graduate and I keep delaying those 4 as long as I could!!!
now what is the point of this whole post? I honestly can't tell you myself because I think I'm still confused about many things in my life and I need to figure out a way to pull myself together soon! Wish me luck finding myself again :)
On a lighter note I found the song that I was looking for back in April of 06....thanks to Youtube and Sporty4ever :)
Sa3a mawzoona sa3a tara'la'leee (That's how I feel LOL)
JB
Welcome back
Dear, you need to graduate and have a job. It will be good for you, different life.
Face it, if you think that you want to go back home, you need to do it ASAP. You are not 21 anymore, you are a mature person.
Hugs for u
Posted by
Anonymous |
5/26/2007 08:25:00 PM
welcome back baby ;*
we missed ya.
and I really think you did the right thing
Posted by
Shopa |
5/26/2007 08:41:00 PM
Welcome back :) now its time to boogy.
I AM HIRO NAKAMURA :p
Posted by
Purgatory |
5/26/2007 09:11:00 PM
NyChick: Hala o ghala 7abebty...it's so nice to see you again :)))))
I know I really need to be done...I need to be there for my parents...my dad keeps telling me he needs me back and I think it's time to be back because when they were here in the summer I really realized how much older they got and it really made me think that I spent a lot of time being away and its time to be with them...so inshallah I will make it happen and get done as soon as I can!
Thanks again 7abebety :***
Shopa: Thanks 7abebty...I think I did the right thing too but I still have my weak moments and question myself if I did the right thing...I guess I need some time :)
Purgy: hahahahaha..where is your sword Hiro...let's teleport out of here ;P
Posted by
Jelly Belly |
5/26/2007 11:22:00 PM
eeeeeeeeeeee :D
wb wb wbbbbbbbbbbbbb
Posted by
Qa6Wa |
5/27/2007 12:07:00 AM
welcome back.. and good for you.. it's never easy.. just try your hardest not to look back.. cuz that just makes it harder to move forward.
Posted by
MSB |
5/27/2007 12:22:00 AM
Welcome back Jello..
If i was in your place, i would try my best to find a job and stay as much as i can... why come to kuwait?!
Give me one good reason else than its home... Ya3amy walla you are wasting shababech bil ham wel kedar, enjoy what you have now... you never know how would it taste later on.
And i don't really called depression or isolating my self from people... i call it my Creativity time... didn't you find out you are so creative? i'm sure you are..
dust off your self girl... every pain in this life is a pleasure a little door into a bigger pleasure, or how would we understand what is happiness if there was no pain?
come along jello :) :* if i was near i would throw you a party.
ya3amy 6anshay... you'll be sad today... what will change?
Posted by
Nooni |
5/27/2007 12:51:00 AM
أي شي؟ أقدم أقدم
:P
Posted by
2 Second Club ® |
5/27/2007 03:51:00 AM
I won't say welcome back until you finish your classes. It is only then that I could say that you are truly back with us :)
Best of luck dear!
Posted by
shosho |
5/27/2007 05:46:00 AM
"now what is the point of this whole post"
The point is to let your readers, who missed you, hear about you.
So welcome back Jelly dear.
Relationships can be a pain in the you know where. So take care of yourself :*
Posted by
Hanan |
5/27/2007 09:18:00 AM
Blasha: Thank you 7abebty...it's good to be back :D
MSB: Thanks ya e3yoni..
I know I'm trying my best not to look back and just think positive about the future...bas as I said to Shopa its hard but I'm trying :)
Judy: Rasta baby...thanks 7abebty..hahahaha trust me life here isn't so easy...I'm working this summer anyways bas the only reason for me to go back is for my family...I know they need me and I can't stay away from them any longer..I'm the only daughter and I know how much they wanna have me around them...I need to be around them.
oh party? wansa I never say no to that LOL...bas the party could wait until I go back :)
thanks again 7abebty for everything :**
Don: isha3rafik inta eb hal sowalif? ay shay agdam agdam :PPP
yemkin "آصدقائك" ya3rfoon :PPPP
Shosho: fair enough...thank you 7abebty I'm working on it I swear :*
Hanan: Thanks 7abebty...wala I missed you guys a lot and I do feel better after posting and reading your comments...it really gives me that push to do better :)
and you can say it Hanan pain in the ASS LOL
yes...they sure are :)
Posted by
Jelly Belly |
5/27/2007 12:27:00 PM
Welcome back and good luck! :)
Posted by
Q8ari ® |
5/28/2007 10:29:00 AM
ترى وايد تقولين حق الناس حبيبتي..
أنا ليش ما تقولينلي حبيبي؟؟
Posted by
2 Second Club ® |
5/29/2007 02:42:00 AM
Q8ari: Thanks dear...and cool nick name...which half is your Qatari side? :)
Don: إنت حبي و مسقبل غيري
Happy now?
oh by the way since when u started typing in Arabic?
...يا شين السرج على
Posted by
Jelly Belly |
5/29/2007 05:55:00 AM
hahahahahahahaha
Posted by
2 Second Club ® |
5/30/2007 03:23:00 AM
So glad the hear you are ok. I worry when people just disappear.
Hang in there you will figure it out. :)
Posted by
christina/ohio |
5/31/2007 10:17:00 AM
Don: ;)
Christina: Thanks hun for your support...your comments always make me smile because it's very mothering in a very soothing way :D
Posted by
Jelly Belly |
5/31/2007 06:06:00 PM
waw im glad i came to check on u! i had a wonderful time in ur blog thanks :P
wb :)
Posted by
Organic Kuwait |
5/31/2007 09:28:00 PM
mama ony: Thanks mama...I'm glad you enjoyed my blog...please come again ;)
Posted by
Jelly Belly |
5/31/2007 09:48:00 PM
Father's side :)
Posted by
Q8ari ® |
6/01/2007 05:45:00 AM
else than family? Allah yekhali skype :P
allah ya7ana will party... gurl !
Posted by
Nooni |
6/01/2007 11:16:00 AM
Q8ari: Sweet...I've lived in Qatar for a little while and I still have friends over there...I heard how much it changed...fa lee zeyara 3indkom inshallah when I get back :)
Judy: get your party shoes on min al7een ;)
Posted by
Jelly Belly |
6/01/2007 03:27:00 PM
I know :D
I wouldn't recommend visiting Qatar to anybody!
bes 7ayach allah, itnawreen dear :)
Posted by
Q8ari ® |
6/04/2007 10:05:00 AM
hey babe.. as a person who's had manic depression for 6 yrs.. (14 - 20) I'm here if u need someone to talk 2.. and yes .. u can pull urself together.. u just need to know where to start.. i did it through trial and error.. just.. do me a fav. avoid getting medicated.. never a good idea.
anyway.. seriously.. feel free to add me on msn or whatever. I think I can help u out.. and yes.. it can be that simple.. if u want it to be ..
Posted by
Guava Jelly |
6/25/2007 11:44:00 PM
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